so that cute boys parade never happened, haha. it was kind of a silly idea, but you never know. one day i'll get bored and lonely.


i'm moving in nine days.. i don't know how often i'll be able to update this thing, but it should be a decent amount. it's an art school. they're bound to have rogue scanners about the place. if not, adieu.. i'll update whenever i can.

it's weird, i'm moving on to the next stage of my life. i figured i would be able to get away scot free, i've been so excited to start college and have some fun. but wouldn't you know, right at the end, rounding third and coming in for home, some hooks found their way into my heart. but it'll be aight. growing pains.

just wanna thank everyone who looks at this little old page. i'm gonna get a website somewhere along the line, i'll make sure to put up the link. until then, same bat time and same bat channel.

love
p

wow it's been a while since i updated this thing.
couple fun facts
i've been accepted into the art academy of cincinnati. i'm super excited, all that hard work paid off. i've got a big ass scholarship too!
i'm out of high school, oh free at last.
i'm involved in a really neat local undertaking called blueprint saints magazine, it's a local magazine that will be comprised of 100+ artists putting out 100+ comics every month! how cool! i'd give you a link but there's really nothing there right now.. but anyway: [link]

i haven't drawn anything for a while either, the stuff i just uploaded is pretty old. it's beginning to come back to me though, there should be some stuff up soon. i plan on doing something i call in my head the divine nine, or the CBP: cute boys parade. which is exactly what it sounds like. i'm just going to go through my favorite subcultures and draw a very attractive male specimen of each. do what you love after all. and, so as not to alienate my entire god damn male audience i'll have some comics up as soon as i learn the dimensions of my cel in the magazine. whazah.

i would just like to say, in light of recent comments left on my shit, what i think an artist is obligated to do in response to a criticism or disapproval of his or her art. i think that the artist should be able to articulate what their thoughts were (if any, there really doesn't have to be) behind a particular piece of work and maybe try to help the other person understand it better. it is not my job to defend an idea after that. it also not my job to prove, disprove, debate, apologize or try to change your mind. and let me tell you right now, it is not anyone's job to change mine, especially if you're going to be a sarcastic asshole about it. so there. i will discuss and analyze until my fingers fall off about the art itself, and what it means, but if you've got a beef with the ideology behind it, it's really not my fucking problem. make your own damn art. and
if you don't like it, don't look at it


well that's about it for now. i was just sick of looking at a seven month old post.

-p

mmphhh. things have gotten better for me recently. i finally got out of my sixth hour, my braces come off in a month, and well, i'm single. i'm still somewhat entrenched in the post breakup mind fuck, right now, but i'm beginning to crawl back out. lots of new things for me.. the likeable inbetween picked my design to be their CD design, i might get $200 for a football shirt design, i painted my good friend's welding helmet all cool and he said he's already been asked about it. so, good for me. every once in a while i get nervous about college. i just need to hunker down and work on my portfolio. i'm bout to get into oils. mom went out to get me some turpentine today, in fact. also, i turn 18 in less than a week! nov. 28th. i'll be celebrating in hazard at la pena's with people much older than me. tonight i'm going to see twilight with sarah, even though i never read the book and kind of made my mind up i would hate it, i'm giving it a chance. cause who am i kidding. i love shameless hot vampire love like any other girl.

1. Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, and find line 4.
He said, "Are you telling the truth?"

2. Stretch your left arm out as far as you can.
i feel some old pictures, super sexy swingin' sounds cd case by white zombie, and some hair clips

3. What is the last thing you watched on TV?
project runway. jerrell got shafted.

4. Without looking, guess what time it is:
5:00

5. Now look at the clock. What is the actual time?
4:33

6. With the exception of the computer, what can you hear?
gorillaz playing.. not much else

7. When did you last step outside? What were you doing?
today, i went all over the place. i went to the library, got some gas, went to mcdonalds..

8. Before you started this survey, what did you look at?
looking on art academy of cinci's web site to see if they have a portfolio guide cause i'm hopefully going to an open house there saturday

9. What are you wearing?
thermal shirt, jeans

10. Did you dream last night?
yes i did. shit. what was it.. oh my god this is going to drive me insane

11. When did you last laugh?
i was reading one of my library books! post secret. one of the secrets was 'i don't want to go to college, i just want to grow shit' with a picture of vegetables and farming implements. made me chuckle warmly

12. What is on the walls of the room you are in?
i've got so much shit on my walls.. i'll just do the one i'm facing currently: spraypainted posterboard that says 'blitzkrieg' all over it (not a nazi), coat rack, picture of grandpap wearing a birthday hat, cd rack, glow in the dark stars, a rag with a perfect imprint of the joker's makeup in it, various cd insert covers, a napkin from liz's disco party from 8th grade, a rollegirls flyer, a cinci horror flyer, some magazine clippings, an outdated playbill from the dame, a flyer from one of my old parties, some pictures of friends, some pictures of musicians, blue sticky tack, and a day of the dead skeleton paper puppet.

13. Seen anything weird lately?
choke, that movie, was pretty bizarre. good though. i also hung out with a guy that had no leg. i feel bad for saying that was weird but, really, i don't naturally see/interact with amputees so it was unnatural in the general sense. he was friendly.

14. What do you think of this quiz?
stupid question no one cares

15. What is the last film you saw?
choke. now i'm reading the book.

16. If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy?
lol tuition. i'm with ya brittany. and some badass clothes. a better car. a tattoo. an apartment for my sister. a house for my mom. squirrel the rest away for my future offspring.

17. Tell me something about you that I don't know.
until recently i was very anxious about the inner workings of pumping gas. now it's no big thang. oddly, i actually even enjoy it a bit.

18. If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you do?
fire ann coulter into the sun from a high powered canon. go back in time and stop the retarded europeans from fucking africa up.

19. Do you like to dance?
oh yes. jared doesn't

20.George Bush:
almost gone. want to see the new movie

21. Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her?
i like cleo, valentine, harriet, beatrice, jane

22. Imagine your first child is a boy, what do you call him?
dmitri. doyle toby

23. Would you ever consider living abroad?
of course. i got the folks in switzerland. i really like russia too but i hear its insane to live there. and australia would be cool as hell.

24. What do you want God to say to you when you reach the pearly gates?
uhh. really i don't expect much from God. in fact if he was just standing around waiting for me to arrive so he could say some witty something or other, i'd probably be disappointed he wasn't busy with something far more important.

mmph. college. i think i've decided on art academy of cinci. they have an illustration program. mortuary school, not so much. i've sadly come to a point where i've had to sit down and think hard about money and options and time and art school's won out. also i learned that facial reconstruction isn't nearly as big a deal as i thought it was, as in there's just not much of it needed on average. plus shit, i'm already good at this whole drawing thing. i'd rather go with what i was born with that will allow me to work in a creative environment, even if i don't get a steady paycheck, rather than something in a field i may or may not like/be good at, that is pretty solidly entrenched in tradition but have a steady job.
looking through old pictures, trying to find some good ones for my portfolio is soothing me. around 9th grade, it seems, it when i started getting into a good groove. it's all about confidence. 9th grade and earlier, all my drawings are a lot sketchier, hashier, too many lines, unsure of myself. i couldn't find a dang thing i liked from sophomore year. that was a bad year for me. then suddenly it picks up again junior year. and senior year a bit. now it's all quite a bit sleeker. i hope they like this stuff.
i think my dream job...s... would be
1) illustrator for cool magazine(s), bands, flyers, album art, cool people, festivals, movie posters, etc, anything to do with subcultural things or horror
2) comic book artist/writer/creator thing
3) special FX makeup artist
4) go go dancer for horror/death/goth punk/rock/metal band, or guitar player if i could ever get decent enough
5) tattoo artist
6) concept art/character/environment creator for some cool studio like blizzard or pixar. story board artist would be neat too
7) graphic designer... sigh... just seems like such a copout. this is what you would call the 'smart' choice since it 'makes you money' but i don't know. designing chic art for hair dye boxes just aint my thing.
currently i'm working on getting scholarships. aa of cinci has a special portfolio based one, and i found a contest created by that scientology guy that seems rather promising.
oh, that jacket. well. i made it a bit too small. otherwise it's kickass. so my mom is helping me fix it. i really did do most of it and by myself too he will have it. and he did really like it. i still burst into sad sad tears from all that work being for naught, but oh well. he was very sweet about it and i'll get it done sooner or later.
hummmmmwell it was a good fall break. i drew a thing for jd and stu ( ) for their band, backwoods terror. they're fucking grand, check them out: [link] . one of my teachers wants me to design a thing (really not sure what exactly) for her husband's company. and both are paid!! $30 each. i think that will be my new rate for everything. unless it's bogglingly easy or very detailed.
and finally, it is FALL. i LOVE FALL. it is seriously THE BEST SEASON EVER. georgetown is so dang pretty right now. driving up main street and seeing the crispy blue sky and the orange trees and going to football games and getting pumped about halloween.. mm mm mm. i think i'm going to pull out my evil deads later on tonight.

see ya later,
p

[link]
i'm on a bizarre radiohead binge. the more i listen to them the more they sound like muse and the more they make muse look like hacks. god damn. in that video thom yorke is ON IT. 'i wanna perfect soo-oo-oo-oul' is go awesome.. god.. everything is most excellent. and their cover of carly simon's nobody does it better is the best love song ever made, in my opinion

now that i'm in art, hurray, i have a better drive to actually do things and do bigger and better things. so there will probably be more stuff now. at the moment, i am in a sewing mood. i have about 3-4 projects on my list of things to do including my halloween outfit and a bitchin moto jacket for jared. i can't start any of them til i get the pattern for the former and the measurements for the latter :[ and then i probably won't be able to get to the fabric store til next weekend. le sigh. my car's fuckin broken. it's so depressing. cars give you so much freedom. but anyway. that jacket will be heinously awesome. you heard it here first. i'm gonna make it out of black canvas and it will have little grommets and snaps and epaulets and everything. and then i will line the bastard in SATIN. and sew a bunch of death and black metal patches on it. and embroider my name right over his heart! mwahaa!

other than that, not much going on.. just want my car fixed very badly. i bought a petticoat today at the band garage sale. as well as some knee and wrist guards for roller skating. and batman forever on vhs. a good day, indeed.

-p